"I have ruined relationships for fear of ruining those relationships."


This quote has hit me hard. It is too true. The moment I get too romantically close with someone, my walls go up and I freak out. I’m so afraid of being hurt that I’ll push away and ruin anything that could’ve been. Gah I frustrate myself. I just trust that God will help me heal and as long as I lose myself in Him, I’ll find the right guy when it’s right and I’ll be able to keep my walls down.

Exactly what I’m feeling.